..Going from “Complicated” to “It’s not that Complicated”..

I thought it was not that complicated. We had what you call a mutual understanding. We like each other. He also had confessed to me that he loves me. But then I stop and think. What it is that we have? I wanted us to be formal. Of course we’re friends, but we had special treatment on each other that it feels like we we’re already together. It’s confusing. At least if we had a commitment we wouldn’t be so confuse. We can crush and burn like any couple was. But the problem is we both know we’re not yet ready to commit, that we’re still immature about being in a relationship that’s why we both have to wait.

“The right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing” says Joshua Harris, author of one of the best selling book “I Kissed Dating Goodbye”. He is indeed right, the right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing.

But then I’m confused, it’s hard to assume that there is nothing going on between us when the fact is that there is something. Something special, something awesome, something both of us like. I don’t know if it’s better this way. But I know there’s something wrong with what I’m feeling. I feel like there’s something that we shouldn’t do. And I feel like there was something that we should be doing. It is hard to weight in the difference between love and friendship.

But then we both knew something that is genuine and true and that is God is between us in everything we do. He is the Author of everything and we give our faith and trust only in His hands. We both know that in everything we’ve been doing there should be His presence and guidance. He is all-knowing, all-powerful, and always there. And I trust in God’s perfect timing. That’s why again.. I’m willing to wait.

And after all, I’ve just realized, that it’s not that complicated at all.