My First Love

He will never be mine, although I know it, I think about him all the time.
Even though it hurts, he's the one that hold's my heart.
Even though I know It'll never come true, I still dream of having him all night.
I just want to have him in my darkest hour, but all I can do was to hug my pillow.
It is him who made me cry,
It was him who made me feel different.
Different from all those petty infatuations, different from all those crushes.
It was different, because he is different.
He is all I need and want, yet he is all I've lost and can never have.
He never know it, and I swear he'll never be.
Even though it's hard to admit it, I think I'm in love with him.
I think I just have my First Love.
And I also just had my first broken heart.  

..I'm Not Alone..

The wind was still. Nothing is moving. It feels like the earth forgot to breath. I'm all alone. Then I look up, saw the clouds turn gray. It feels like it's closing in on me. Even the leaves doesn't dance like they used to be. Though it's dark, there was still a rey of light coming from the sun.

That's when I remember Him. He who's always there. He who never chage. He who loves me no matter what. He who made me.

Then suddenly, I feel a little happiness in my heart. A little happiness that's enough to made me feel loved again. When the world suddenly turn it's back on me, and it feels like I'm alone. I turn to look at what I have left, and it seems to be Him..now.. always.. ti'll the end of time..forever..

Even though the wind was still not there, the earth doesn't breath, the clouds remain dark, the leaves doesn't dance anymore, and even though there was no one around me... I don't feel so alone anymore..