“The Not-so-happy Continuation”

OneBusyWeek + OneCuteGirl = AbreakingOfAheart

That’s the equation; it took only those two to break a woman’s heart. It doesn’t make sense does it? But it turn out to be true to the bones, let me continue the last topic. It all started that one night, I saw him lying on someone else’s legs. It hurts. Although I don’t have any right to be jealous or something, It still hurts me. This is where the “not-so-complicated” become really complicated. Worst, he even admitted to me that he really like that girl, not considering what will I feel. I feel that from the moment I told him I love him, he just change. From being that sweet, caring guy t that “I-don’t-care-about-you” or “I-don’t-even-notice-your-there” guy. Everything went crazy. I’d cried. But realized that he’s not worth my tears. Now he is sitting right next to me, not knowing that I’m writing about him. “Let it be” The Beattle’s sing. But I cannot deny the fact that I didn’t want our story to end this way. But if it’s really what ‘s supposed to happen, then I’ll accept it. If it is what God has planned I’m honored to follow it with all my heart.

Hope I can cope up with this heartbreak.. pray for me guys.. thanks..!!

“Sometimes, letting go doesn’t mean that you don’t love that person anymore, it means that you love that person so much that you are willing to give him up for his own happinnes..”
-C.A.P.S (._.)

..Going from “Complicated” to “It’s not that Complicated”..

I thought it was not that complicated. We had what you call a mutual understanding. We like each other. He also had confessed to me that he loves me. But then I stop and think. What it is that we have? I wanted us to be formal. Of course we’re friends, but we had special treatment on each other that it feels like we we’re already together. It’s confusing. At least if we had a commitment we wouldn’t be so confuse. We can crush and burn like any couple was. But the problem is we both know we’re not yet ready to commit, that we’re still immature about being in a relationship that’s why we both have to wait.

“The right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing” says Joshua Harris, author of one of the best selling book “I Kissed Dating Goodbye”. He is indeed right, the right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing.

But then I’m confused, it’s hard to assume that there is nothing going on between us when the fact is that there is something. Something special, something awesome, something both of us like. I don’t know if it’s better this way. But I know there’s something wrong with what I’m feeling. I feel like there’s something that we shouldn’t do. And I feel like there was something that we should be doing. It is hard to weight in the difference between love and friendship.

But then we both knew something that is genuine and true and that is God is between us in everything we do. He is the Author of everything and we give our faith and trust only in His hands. We both know that in everything we’ve been doing there should be His presence and guidance. He is all-knowing, all-powerful, and always there. And I trust in God’s perfect timing. That’s why again.. I’m willing to wait.

And after all, I’ve just realized, that it’s not that complicated at all.