Mr. Right gone Wrong.

Guys. There are a lot of them. Different kind actually. Now let me tell you some details about guys and their attitudes. To begin with, I’m actually not an expert on anything; I’m just a simple girl with one simple wish. .to find Mr. Right. But, there is a big “BUT”, Mr. Right decided not to exist anymore. It seems like they just vanished from the ground. Anyway, here it is a little description on the Mr. Right gone wrong. Let’s start with the most easy to find, Mr. Torpe. Well, Mr. Torpe actually exists in every guy, but there are some that who are exceedingly shy or prideful. Mr. Torpe with good looks sometimes called Mr. Nerd. Mr. Nerd had good looks and the brain to work it. But, he is shy and does lack confidence. It makes him more attractive to girls actually, not knowing that he looks good and he’s shy. The only thing wrong about him is that he lacks confidence and in some cases had a high standard on people, which makes him hard to approach and awkward to be with, and irritating at some point. The other Mr. Torpe is actually cute in many ways, yah, he’s charming, sweet and easy to be with. He’s actually the type that you want to be more friends with than any type of guys. He’s not as smart as Mr. Nerd is but he knows the importance of a good education so he always studies. You can be yourself with him all the time. He cracks jokes that make your bad day good. He got a smile that you can't help but adore. He’s someone you’ll fall for just because of his kindness. The only thing wrong about him is that when he starts to like a girl, especially a friend of him, he started to be distance and feel awkward. For him, friendship and love doesn’t exist twice. They are two different things never to be mixed with. He thought that friendship actually means much more than to risk it with some petty love. It is sad, often guys like him experience heart break more than once or twice and was afraid to fall again. Next is Mr. Jerk, no wait. I would like to reserve Mr. Jerk last. So next is Mr. Playboy. Mr. Playboy is a good guy, that has high self confidence, smart, funny, thoughtful, sweet and usually comes with a girlfriend. Yap, he already had a girlfriend but acts as if he don’t have even if everyone knows he had. (Kinda confusing, my last statement right there.) He’ll tell lies, cheats, and make you swoon over his sweetness and make you feel that well, it’s okay to have him as a friend (with benefits) even if he had a girlfriend. There are also two types of Mr. Playboy, the first one is the one who flirts with everyone, almost everyone though, he don’t flirt with ladies whom he thinks won’t fall for him. He changes girlfriends every month or every week or even every day. He’s the reason why monthsaries are invented, because relationships he has won’t even last for a year. Mr. Playboy 2 however does have a girlfriend for long years. He cheated with her for the 400 times but he still holds on to her. The poor girl however won’t let go of him. This I actually don’t quite comprehend, how can you hold on to a guy who cheats with you every single time he had a chance? Well, it’s either love or desperation. I just hope it’s not desperation. I never really know how this kind of guy still lives. Or what would happen to him. All I know is that he should never exist if only guys think not only what he feels but about what other feels. If Mr. Playboy 2 loves himself too much, he can never love anyone more than himself. Next is Mr. Paasa. Well, they say that a lot of girls assume and expect too much that’s why they hope for love that was not there. It is, at some cases, true. And girls should be much smarter than they are. But the mere fact that guys shows something that wasn’t even there; they are already making “Paasa”. So, how do you know Mr. Paasa? Simple, they were normally a friend of yours who’ll makes you feel as if they like you. Makes you fall on your knees with simple kindness and gesture. They’ll make you feel they like you even if they don’t. And until now I never understand why they do that. But, once they see that you’re already falling for them, they won’t catch you anymore. They’ll let you fall on the ground and you’ll hit on it hard. They would start to ignore you, make awkward things to make you feel uncomfortable which would make you starts to ignore him, and the moment you confront him for what you really feel, he’ll simply tell you, “Hey, I don’t really remember saying that I like or I love you. You’re just hoping for something that wasn’t even there, masyado ka lang umaasa.” And there you are, hurt, disappointed, broken hearted. We also have Mr. Confusing. I actually don’t want to include him on this list but I see that he too does exist. Mr. Confusing is what the song “Urong-Sulong” is about. He’s the one that makes you think, “What on earth do we have?” He’ll make you stay in the middle of something. He’s your friend, usually your best friend but there are certain limits that you two had already cross as if you are together already. He sometimes makes you feel he likes you and then the next day makes you feel that you don’t even exist. (As you see, I love using the word exist) Anyway, there he is, walking towards you, and you won’t know what’s gonna be next to your relationship. He just makes everything complicated and well, confusing. This guy is particularly easy to handle, just show him Ms. Confrontational and settle things straight with him and you. Then there’s Mr. MU. Mr. MU won’t exist if you won’t let him. He’s a dangerous type of guy. So, you tell me, you guys met and at some point your attracted to him and you feel he does the same way. You became friends, real good friends. You talk about anything and would go anywhere. You feel comfortable being with each other. And then he tells you straight that he likes you, you blushed, and happy because for the first time, here is a guy who likes you and you also likes. Then, you wait for the right time to tell him what you feel, just to make sure. And the moment you told him you also love him, everything just felt like the movies. You feel like, here it is, finally, the person I’ve been looking for. The only thing hindering you both is time. You had the right love at the wrong time. You both decide not to go into any commitment and just enjoy each other’s company, at least your both in love right? And one day, when the time is right, you’ll finally be together. But then, time is a confusing being. One way or another, one of you would be tired of waiting and started to fall out of love. And there he is, Mr. MU turns to be Mr. Confusing, and then turns to either Mr. Playboy or Mr. Paasa. It is a sad situation actually, since you teach him to be Mr. MU, it is also your fault. Lastly, we had Mr. Jerk. Mr. Jerk is the one I hated most. Hmm, let’s just say, all of the type of guys I’ve mentioned earlier are all combined to him. Yeah, really, they can all exist in just one person. And believe me girls, you can’t help but meet Mr. Jerk. It is a good thing if you only meet him because your friend talk about him, what’s bad is when you’re the one who experienced him. The thing I don’t like the most about Mr. Jerk is that he made you love him so much that you start to lose yourself over the process. Even if you knew him, you would still take the chance to be with him, hoping for a chance to change him. The sad truth is Mr. Jerk can never be changed unless he wanted to change himself. Well, there you are girls. Hope this simple article would actually help you in any way possible. And again, I’m not an expert on these things; I just learn from others experiences, my own experiences and observations. And of course, you don’t have to deal with these guys anyway, if you only chooses to wait, wait, wait. Because I still know there is someone really made for you. Someone God had prepared for you, you just gotta be patient. And reserve your heart for the right one for you, you don’t need to deal with these kind of guys that would just bruise you and hurt you. And yes, love isn’t the only thing that makes the world go ‘round. Even if you’re the only one in your barkada that doesn’t have a boyfriend or a love life it wouldn’t end your world. Maybe God just wanted you to focus more on other things that makes you more productive. You’re not an animal and your duty does not only depend on how you would go and multiply. You are more than what your love life tells you. So, stay happy, even if your single. Or rather, celebrate! Because singleness is a blessing, you maybe don’t realize but there are a lot of responsibility comes with a relationship and a lot of stress too. So, you’re actually blessed. God bless you beautiful sweet girl! -C.A.P.S ~P.S. Sorry for all the typo's and wrong grammars. Peace out! ~ ;)

LADY GAGA - Born This Way (Cover)

ARRRGGGG!!!!!!!!!! MY STOMACH ACHES!!!!! DISMINORIA!!!!!

This happens for the first time, disminoria at school. haha..

I'm always experiencing it at home. It was painful, really it is. But it's even more harder to have it at school. I can't even consentrate on typing this post. OOoohh.. it attacks again. Then disappear...just like a sad love story.

---->Gosh! First time experiencing twitter!<---- So fun! hehe... Following even the most famous stars! Anyway, got something to post, just can't post it right now.. ther's a distraction. <----OUCH!----->

WOW!!!! It's been a long time!!!

.date: March 2,2010..

wow! It's been a long time since I last posted on this blog. I even thought that it had already expired. haha. hmm.. A lot of things happen in the last 5 months, and I don't know where to start on the update. okay.. Let's get it on...

On the last five months of confusion, it's finally settled. The so-called "Love affair" ended. awwww...how sad right?. WRONG. It was a bit painful, but never the less, it helped me a lot to grow and mature in terms of waiting. Before, I thought he was the one that God gave me to love and care for, but then again, I was wrong. God just used him to teach me a good lesson on love and waiting. And now we're friends and we had a good relationship with each other, we've learned and value that learning a lot.

Hmmm... What else?. Ah! What a busy week it has been.. we're graduating, the pressure of works are increasing. The OJT, the school works, the school projects, and every requirements that needed to graduate. Hoo! And it even seems that when the graduating day is so close, it gets too far. I'm praying for strength and patience. :)

And after all, I still don't know what journey I will take. What will I be after I graduated. Shall I continue my study? Or stop and work for my family?

Well, one things certain and for sure, that I have my God on my side. Always guiding me and leading me on and according to His perfect will and timing.

My trust is fully on His great knowledge and wisdom!
To God be the glory! God bless!

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“The Not-so-happy Continuation”

OneBusyWeek + OneCuteGirl = AbreakingOfAheart

That’s the equation; it took only those two to break a woman’s heart. It doesn’t make sense does it? But it turn out to be true to the bones, let me continue the last topic. It all started that one night, I saw him lying on someone else’s legs. It hurts. Although I don’t have any right to be jealous or something, It still hurts me. This is where the “not-so-complicated” become really complicated. Worst, he even admitted to me that he really like that girl, not considering what will I feel. I feel that from the moment I told him I love him, he just change. From being that sweet, caring guy t that “I-don’t-care-about-you” or “I-don’t-even-notice-your-there” guy. Everything went crazy. I’d cried. But realized that he’s not worth my tears. Now he is sitting right next to me, not knowing that I’m writing about him. “Let it be” The Beattle’s sing. But I cannot deny the fact that I didn’t want our story to end this way. But if it’s really what ‘s supposed to happen, then I’ll accept it. If it is what God has planned I’m honored to follow it with all my heart.

Hope I can cope up with this heartbreak.. pray for me guys.. thanks..!!

“Sometimes, letting go doesn’t mean that you don’t love that person anymore, it means that you love that person so much that you are willing to give him up for his own happinnes..”
-C.A.P.S (._.)

..Going from “Complicated” to “It’s not that Complicated”..

I thought it was not that complicated. We had what you call a mutual understanding. We like each other. He also had confessed to me that he loves me. But then I stop and think. What it is that we have? I wanted us to be formal. Of course we’re friends, but we had special treatment on each other that it feels like we we’re already together. It’s confusing. At least if we had a commitment we wouldn’t be so confuse. We can crush and burn like any couple was. But the problem is we both know we’re not yet ready to commit, that we’re still immature about being in a relationship that’s why we both have to wait.

“The right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing” says Joshua Harris, author of one of the best selling book “I Kissed Dating Goodbye”. He is indeed right, the right thing at the wrong time is the wrong thing.

But then I’m confused, it’s hard to assume that there is nothing going on between us when the fact is that there is something. Something special, something awesome, something both of us like. I don’t know if it’s better this way. But I know there’s something wrong with what I’m feeling. I feel like there’s something that we shouldn’t do. And I feel like there was something that we should be doing. It is hard to weight in the difference between love and friendship.

But then we both knew something that is genuine and true and that is God is between us in everything we do. He is the Author of everything and we give our faith and trust only in His hands. We both know that in everything we’ve been doing there should be His presence and guidance. He is all-knowing, all-powerful, and always there. And I trust in God’s perfect timing. That’s why again.. I’m willing to wait.

And after all, I’ve just realized, that it’s not that complicated at all.

.. A litlle bit more longer..

I've waited all my life for him. And now that I've found him, now that God give him to me, now that everything was seem so right, God is telling me that "You've waited that long for him, you've been so patient in waiting for him, yet you did not give up, yet your still true enough to your faith, I know that you've waited so long for him, but now that I had given him to you, you have to wait a little bit more longer". Why? Should I even ask?.. I've trusted God long enough, shouldn't I trust Him even more?. I should and I would.

I'm a graduating second-year student, he's a freshman. We've known each other for the past 2 months, we had a knowledge that we both like each other, we've both written each other little love letters. He love me, he said, and I like him back. But today or even tomorrow  or even next month was not the right time for us. He knew it and he's actually the one who's reminding me. He has a close relation with God, and that's one thing I love about him. His ready to wait then so am I.

After 5 years or even more, if we're meant to be then so it be. And we know that God is the Author of all great things. He is the Author of our story, and to Him be the Glory!

Yes,I love him and he loves me. But I'm willing to wait a little bit more longer..  for it is what God has commanded me to do. So, I will trust Him and keep my faith at all times. :)